ORIGIN

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TRACK LIST
01. Origin
02. Whisper
03. Imaginary
04. My Immortal
05. Where Will You Go?
06. Field of Innocence
07. Even In Death
08. Anywhere
09. Lies
10. Away From Me
11. Eternal
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ABOUT

Origin was released on November 4, 2000, in Little Rock, Arkansas. It was manufactured in Nashville and only a total of 2500 copies were made.

Even though Evanescence was released from the agreement with Bigwig Enterprises in February 2001, and contractually Bigwig had to stop selling Origin, copies continued to sell on Bigwig's website until February 2003 (a day or two before the Daredevil Soundtrack was released) and removed it from their catalogue. Amy Lee does not consider this an album, but rather a collection of demos that they "dressed up" to send to different major labels.

The original release contained a hidden track, which is located before the first track. To hear it, one must the first track to roughly -0:24. The hidden track is an outtake of the Anywhere bridge, with Amy Lee and David Hodges singing and a quote from the movie My Boyfriend's Back.

The cover photo was photographed by Rocky Gray, and the package was designed by Adrian James. The band was photographed by Ben Moody, Sr., an architectural historian, which explains the interest in statues, sculptures and monuments in cemeteries.

The album was partly recorded at Ben's apartment and Amy's family attic with an 8-track recorder. Amy's vocals were recorded in Ben's closet, which doubled as a vocal booth. My Immortal was recorded late at night at the radio station where Amy's father worked.

LYRICS

ORIGIN
I'm sure it's getting darker
Don't close your eyes
Don't make a sound
Don't make a sound


You hold the answer deep within your own mind
Death in it's most hideous form
WHISPER
Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now [it's all over now]
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drive me into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If I will it all away

Don't turn away [Don't give in to the pain]
Don't try to hide [Though they're screaming your name]
Don't close your eyes [God knows what lies behind them]
Don't turn out the light [Never sleep, never die]

I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away

Don't turn away [Don't give in to the pain]
Don't try to hide [Though they're screaming your name]
Don't close your eyes [God knows what lies behind them]
Don't turn out the light [Never sleep, never die]

Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me, I fear

She beckons me shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet the end

Don't turn away [Don't give in to the pain]
Don't try to hide [Though they're screaming your name]
Don't close your eyes [God knows what lies behind them]
Don't turn out the light [Never sleep, never die]
IMAGINARY
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh, how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby [paper flowers]
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me [paper flowers]

I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story

If you need to leave the world you live in
Lay your head down and stay a while [paper flowers]
Though you may not remember dreaming
Something waits for you to breathe again [paper flowers]

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby [paper flowers]
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me [paper flowers]
MY IMMORTAL
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
WHERE WILL YOU GO?
You're too important for anyone
You play the role of all you long to be
But I [I] I know who you really are
You're the one who cries when you're alone

But where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself?
You can't escape
You can't escape

You think that I can't see right through your eyes
Scared to death, to face reality
No one seems to hear your hidden cries
You're left to face yourself alone

But where will you go [where will you go?]
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can’t escape the truth
I realize you're afraid [I realize]
But you can't abandon everyone
You can't escape
You don't want to escape

I am so sick of speaking words that no one understands
Is it clear enough that you can't live your whole life all alone?
I can hear you in a whisper
But you can't even hear me screaming

Where will you go [where will you go?]
With no one left to save you from yourself?
You can't escape the truth
I realize you're afraid [I realize]
But you can't reject the whole world
You can't escape
You won't escape
You can't escape
You don't want to escape

[Yeah, yeah, yeah]
Yeah, yeah, yeah [ah]
Yeah, yeah... yeah [yeah yeah] [ah]
Yeah, yeah... yeah [yeah yeah] [ah]
Yeah, yeah... yeah [yeah yeah] [ah]
Yeah, yeah... yeah [yeah yeah] [ah]
FIELD OF INNOCENCE

[Iesu, Rex amirabilis]

I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh! I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything
And knowing nothing at all

I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now

Where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh! I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything

[Iesu, Rex amirabilis]
[et triumphator nobilis]
[dulcedo ineffabilis]
[ineffabilis] [totus desiderabilis]

As the years pass by before my face
[totus desiderabilis]
As wars rage before me
Finding myself in these last days of existence
This parasite inside me I forced it out
In the darkness of the storm
[Iesu, Rex amirabilis]
Lies an evil
But it's me


Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh! I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything

Oh! Where? Where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh! I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything

I still remember

[Iesu, Rex amirabilis]

EVEN IN DEATH

Give me a reason to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong
Moonlight on the soft brown earth
It leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home

I will stay forever here with you, my love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on

Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love [my love]
But no bonds can hold me from your side, Oh my love
They don't know you can't leave me
They don't hear you singing to me

I will stay forever here with you, my love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
And I can't love you, any more than I do

I will stay forever here with you, my love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
And I can't love you, any more than I do

People die, but real love is forever

ANYWHERE

Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven’t you longed to be free
I can’t keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning's light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name

I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning's light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you now

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning's light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name

[Yeah, yeah, yeah]
Yeah, yeah, yeah [ah]
Yeah, yeah... yeah [yeah yeah] [ah]
Yeah, yeah... yeah [yeah yeah] [ah]
Yeah, yeah... yeah [yeah yeah] [ah]
Yeah, yeah... yeah [yeah yeah] [ah]

LIES

Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear
Sealed with lies through so many tears
Lost from within, pursuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to again


You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above

They'll never see
I'll never be
I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me

But through my tears breaks a blinding light
Birthing a dawn to this endless night
Arms outstretched, awaiting me
An open embrace upon a bleeding tree


Rest in me and I'll comfort you
I have lived and I died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you

They'll never see
I'll never be
I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me

They'll never see
I'll never be
I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me

Rest in me, I'll comfort you
I have lived and died for you
Abide in me, I vow to you
I will never forsake you


They'll never see
I'll never be
I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me

AWAY FROM ME

I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds
But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved

And I
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
[Away from this place I have made]
Won't you take me away from me?

Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become

[I've woken now]
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
[I'm lost in you]
I'm longing to be lost in you
[Away from this place I have made]
Won't you take me away from me?

Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live

[I've woken now]
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
[I'm lost in you]
I'm longing to be lost in you

[I've woken now]
I've woken now to find myself
I'm lost in the shadows of my own
[I'm lost in you]
I'm longing to be lost in you
Away from me

ETERNAL

(Instrumental - no lyrics)